Dear Sawyer,
Today I don't know what to do. It's been a good day, but this evening we decided to go introduce ourselves to our new neighbors. She asked if we had any kids. We said no. I know that she was asking if we have any kids at home, since she has two, but the answer didn't sit well with me. We do have a child, while you are not with us in our home now you will be with us forever. Your mom and I spent awhile discussing it and I think I know what I'll say next time. I think saying no is a disservice to your memory. Maybe you don't mind that answer, but I want you to be acknowledged. I'm not looking for pity if I told someone we had a daughter that passed. If there was any follow up conversation they would know how blessed we feel to be able to hold you for the time that we did. They would know how many good things have come out of this. Well, I'm sorry to keep this so short but I have to finish up one of my classes tonight. It'll be good to get school done with and be able to take a break.
Love,
Dad
Scott - I don't know that I have the right words. I just know that I can and do feel your grief. My wife and I laid Michael to rest on Jan 27, 2009, he was 22wks along. I think the greatest blessing was to be able to hold our little one, and while painful now, there will come a time when that memory does bring a certain kind of joy and peace. The birth and passing of Sawyer will be the best and worst gift you have ever been given. Sawyer will always be there with you, and at times you will cry and feel the grief, but she will bring a joy to your life that you cannot yet feel. My wife and I will pray for you and yours, and when asked if I have kids, I always answer "yes" because you have loved her in ways you don't even understand... - John
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